Thursday, 19 December 2013
Life is Short
I have decided to live my life differently. 18 years ago, I nearly lost my husband (due to a household accident) before we got married and have tried so hard to make each day count. But how quickly we get into the rut of routine and just getting through each day, each week, each month and yes, each year.
I have decided:
I will make time to see my friends and re-kindle old friendships that mattered to me.
I will create memories with my family.
I want to be able to look back on my life and see that it was good.
That I did my best.
That I lived in the NOW.
I died this streak of pink into my hair in memory of my dear friend Claire as a permanent reminder of how fragile life is and how quickly things can change.
Just this evening I heard of another school friend who is having a brain tumour removed tomorrow that was discovered on Tuesday. If she does not have the opp to remove it, it will kill her. She might not make it through the opp...but it is her only chance.
Edit: After a full day in theatre, Bryony has come through surgery, only time will tell what damage the tumour did, they had to leave a bit as it was too enmeshed in nerves, but the life threatening part is out! She is awake and complaining of a headache! May that be the least of her worries.
I find myself sitting at my desk devoid of inspiration and ideas, I just need to get through this emotional time and hopefully the ability to create will come back. The act of being creative is usually my solace, but I am learning to do nothing and to just be...not to fill my time with activity.
I am tired of being strong, I am worn out and need to take time for me, to fill me up and to rebuild me. If I don't look after myself, no one else is going to do it for me...